Isolation followed by heartache.

It's 3.18 in the wee hours of the morning right now,and i can't fall asleep even though how whacked out i am now after a whole day out a couple of hours ago. Why? I don't understand why either. Was just watching (szyg,szn) and it's really nice. It could really make someone cry,and to feel nostalgic. Everywhere i go it's you i see,it's you that i could feel,it's you that it seemed that i could touch. But somehow you're not anywhere near from me,a milestone away from me. Whenever anything that occurs now,i would tend to abstain from reality,sit down,and think back. The days we had together,all are now vague. I could only remember vaguely how you look like,how you sounded like and most importantly how you used to pamper me. Does this actually sounded like i've moved on? Thoughts of you still kept running through my mind,and i can't help it. I told myself i'd be stronger without you,your encouragement. Still,why do i get crestfallen over the slightest thing?
You're just a good friend of mine,and i am thinking out of the box. F it. Sometimes it isn't just the people around you that you have to think of,it's you yourself.
So i'm promising myself,i'm going to give myself the best,and nothing else. (:
(L) all the people around me,best thing that could ever happen to my life. (They)
I didn't know typing out just one blog post could make me so knackered,alright guess all of you know what i mean. (:
Goodmorning.

It's been long folks,since the very last time i updated. Had many activities the past few days,so many things happened. Aha,and Prisc,Serene and i are at Chunsen's house now,great food man! Alright,alright,just see the pix kkkkkkk (:


ZOOOOOOO (:

Those are the lovely people that i've had spent Christmas with,and that is why Chirstmas was so enjoyable this year (:

Priceless gift from heaven.

Firstly i would like to say thank you to all of you whose pictures are in this post,you all are the greatest friends that i have. Unlike some who goes around trying to sow discord among us,who thinks that she'll never get exposed. Alright, i love you all so much and no other people (:
To think that all of us fell into your dirty trap,all of us thought that you deserved to be sympathized,none of us are perfect,and we thought you had a heart made of gold. Actually it turned out to be, you had a heart made of plastic. You were so fake that that your show put it off well to fool us for more than a year. We were all imprudent. especially me. You caused misery to all of the people around me and also me,you thought you could win everyone's heart by underhand means. Well,when i wanted to show my sincerity when apologizing by getting you something,but you said that i was trying to buy you over. I was mentally unstable to actually believe you all these while,guess you're more suitable for mass comm course,hmm but i don't even think you can get in there. You ain't a bitch nor a slut, you are a beast,a beast in disguise,or rather worse than a beast could ever be. You're just like the guy in the show called Last one standing, the bad guy. Guess you had an extreme high fever which has caused you to become the person whom i didn't used to know right from the beginning. BEAST,YOU'RE SO OUT FROM MY LIFE.

Getting higher.

In a blink of eye,o's are almost over! Been shopping these few days,and it's really great,cuz there's great clothings and great pictures (: After wednesday,i'll be so effing free,and it's enjoy,enjoy and more enjoyment on wed,thurs,fri,sat,countless. Went shopping with pris(lovely) yesterday at bugis and town. Love her a trillionth!

It's takin' forever.

Ah well, i've finally watched final destination 4,which also in 3D! (: Yea,it's m18,but MartinPriscilla and I managed to convince the ticketers that we're 18 just by our really mature outfit. Watched it yesterday with PriscillaM and Ahger. Great thing,the show's nice,gross but the ending's no good at all,it keeps all of us in question mark. I guess the producers did that so that they could produce final destination 5,and i'll be watching it by then (: Though the 1week holiday has finally arrived,but i can't rest,will mugging the whole day and maybe through the wee hours of the morning. Another 1 and a half months it'll be O levels,and i'm starting to have butterflies in my stomach.
Sometimes in life,we just have to keep walking. Don't come to a halt just to wait for someone who's far behind,cuz life still goes on.. And i'm moving on.

I'm falling.

Hi all readers,click on www.alina-bzse.blogspot.com support cuz it's just a project,it doesn't hurt to click!(: Alright. I was kind of jovial when i saw something,but it seems like i haven't got over everything yet,i almost wept,but i did not. I thought that i was one who had the worst experience,but actually my friends were in an even woser plight than i am in. I believe that you'll be happier,but i think that i'm never inferior to her,in fact slightly better,not self praising. I don't know about you that much anymore,we ain't even friends at all. I have mix feelings about it, i'm exhilarated but at the same time poignant. I detest this feeling, i want to escape from the brutal truth,i want everything back as usual. Also with this bug killing me now,i'm totally weakened. Had a high fever of 38.9,and it's once in a blue moon,so it hurts a lot.

Here are some pictures:

Marina barrage

Yanru,love you to the max! (;


Phrenz carnival

I love you to the max too!<3
UP 3D



www.youstarewhatstare.blogspot.com Omg,it's funny!
Feeling nostalgic.

Rather weird,but great.

National Celebration in school yesterday,and there was like the finals for all interclass games. The best celebration ever had in my whole 5years in school,everything was great. And our class came in 3rd for netball and 2nd for soccer (: That was the great part,all of us did our best, and we have reaped for all the hard work that we've put in. Love 5a1!
Watched UP in 3D also in that same day's night,which is also yesterday night, with 2Priscillas, June, Alfie, Alex, Chan and Ariff. The show's quite sweet and it's funny, and i'm yearning to watch final destination in 3D man! That'll definitely be the greatest thriller movie in 3D! (: The movie only ended at half past eleven at night,hence got home only at midnight. Lovvve y'all and the C! What if things turn out the way that i sort of expected it to? I wouldn't know either.

Ohhfug,this is so effin' cute.(:
well,busy cooped up with lots of homework,studies and books,my life's boring now,but at the same time,i do feel happy too. When the skies are gray and when i've no one to turn to,i would sit down and ponder back at how naive life was for me,i took every single thing for a speck of dust,i just couldn't bother much. I thought i was perfect,every nice thing would occur to me everyday of my life. God proved me wrong,he wanted me to know that things don't come as and when i want it to. As a result,i lost many things in my life,in fact a lot. I was incredibly selfish,gullible and adamant,i thought of no one. But now,all are different,life's different,thing's different. The memories that i kept with me all that while,i decided to let it go. Poof,and it's gone into the landfill. I will still continue to remember the beautiful memories i had with you,but i will also never forget how you made me stronger though,thank you,a million thank yous. Now i'm living life everyday filled with hope,at least now i know how great life is,without you and your support. (:
Goodbye loved,hello love.